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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:30

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She was in good health!

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Im still living with it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

How do I run away? I'm 15 and live in Oklahoma.

I have no regrets .

I don,t even have a pension.

I write beautiful poetry .

Do you like high heels?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We were not on the streets..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Are evolutionists giving evolution a bad name by claiming humans started off as shrews?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

(And it was in our own minds.)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

What are some questions obviously just asked for sexual gratification?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Can I see some anal hole?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

It was going to be , some day.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why am I sweating so much when I try to do anything?

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He knew the spot.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I said to her

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My life is so biszare .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She loved him until the end.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Would this be the day?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So whats the point in blame.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

So, i spoilt her more .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I never cut or harmed myself..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

One cannot live in the past .

I think the readers, may guess!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I waited trembling.

And i lived it daily.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was 9 years of age.

But, we were locked up after school.

My family never makes their pension either.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Who then, do I blame.?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She wouldn,t have been !

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

As i do to all so called friends.?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Ive learnt so much.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I will be 64.

When she asked me how she looked .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She found it foreign!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We all went to grammer schools

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

This is soul school!.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But it wasn’t much.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was seconnd youngest,

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Comes on , in middle age.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

What did i know ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

All the time i was locked up.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was scared of men, in general

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She married twice! .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Put me off passion for life!!

I was very sick at this time too.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!